Ok so a little more about my journey into talk therapy...my reason for doing it initially was because I didn't want to vent to friends about things re how much is going on in my life.
The conversations have been interesting. I'm definitely circling around a substantial piece of healing. I do see how one could be 'stuck' in talk therapy for years because it's a very mental body process. I also see how Intrinsic Energy Work ® can compliment it. I still prefer IEW to get to the root of things more quickly.
That being said, this process is like a manual turning of the Prism letting me look at things from a different angle. In today's session we were talking about my brother and his bullying ways, how even despite how he treated me I was able to see what he was working on as pre-teen and then she asked me about my relationship with food. I mentioned that I was able to get rid of my chocola-holic tendency but not able to release my crunchy-salty additiction.
I've looked at chips and stuff as a form of comfort which never made sense, but something I said today did. I reach for those things as a form of self comfort because I don't get it from anyone in my life and I feel I deserve to be comforted. The shift isnt that they are comfor food, it's why I feel I need that comfort (no one else comforts me.)
There is something in this awareness that shifted things for me. So now I can use my tools to do the healing that will help me move beyond this picture.
this100% resonates except replace chips with melted cheese and viola ;) and I very much share that same picture. mine is for different reasons but a learned pattern as a child not to cry bc it would make my mom upset when she was in the hospital. So i learned to hide my feelings and just keep to myself. no comfort but the irony is that she was always willing to comfort me, it was others that limited me expressing and her response of natural maternal instinct to protect us and it would have been better for us both to just emote and allow it without others influence bc of their own limits on showing emotions. I only understood later in life. and i still eat comfort foods when i feel alone and unsupported. so i still have work to do around this piece. actually allowing and asking for comfort from others vs having to do it all myself...etc.